ah finally!! im bak..
seriously.. i wonder y i bothered 2 create a blog in the 1st place.. coz after the 1st (miserable) blog ive never had the chance 2 even log in to my blog..
ive been soooooooooooooooo busy with my life at SMS dat i never even had the time 2 think of all this.. now now.. my seniors who're readin this will go.. "as if shes the only one.. v hav all been thru the same kinda life, but v were never this busy".. i knwwww..
well.. u see wat the differene b/w them nd me is?? this is the first time im doin real work.. all these years its been the easy way.. u get all the materials in front of u.. u gobble it up.. "reproduce" it on the answer sheets(as teachers name the 'process'), nd score marks.. in my case, the marks were not juz marks.. very gud marks, excellent marks vich won me a university rank.. (a little boastin wont do any harm, wud it??? ;) the fact dat i wus rank 3 out of a meagre 500 students dusnt make much difference, does it? after all.. a rank is a rank)
i knw i knw.. ive juz crossed the "a little boasting" limit.. so.. wer were v??
aha! the easy way.. yea.. so wen i started my life in SMS i wus bewildered.. i was totally at sea.. i had no idea wer i wud get materials 4 my assignments nd presentations.. or rather 2 start with.. i had no idea wat presentations were.. i had no idea how 2 go about with my studies.. i had no idea how 2 attend the classes even.. in short i was clueless about evrythn..
(probably the reason why i was ecstatic after my first presentation..)
anyways.. soon i realized i wasnt the only one.. evry1 was goin through the same mental tortures as i was.. that realization.. of being "partners in misery" brought us close nd eased our tensions.. thats wen v started taking things lightly.. in fact, a bit too lightly.. but still workz work.. alongside all the fun v had der wus a lot 2 do.. my valid xcuse 4 not chkin my mails or loggin into my blogspot or even calling up my frnds 4 that matter..
the presentations nd assignments got over in a while.. nd v were nearing the end of our sem(a very short sem owing 2 the late comencement.. thanks 2 the authorities).. nd by then v had earned the reputation of being "a happy-go-lucky, good 4 nthn batch" :D then came the internal examinations.. nd dat wus wen it dawned on us wat v were in.. DEEPSHIT!! the modules reminded us of deep blue oceans extending beyond the horizon.. wat a beautiful picture!! nd the tension wus bak.. twice as fast as it had vanished one cursed day!!
nd der.. at our doorstep.. guess who?? yep yep.. bloody extenal examinations.. v cud feel the tension build(incorrect use of language?? never mind..) by the minute.. there was sooooooo much 2 finish nd sooooooooo little time.. v tried 2 b strong nd brave like warriors at the warfront. but it was no use.. day by day, v were breakin down.. giving in to the pressure.. nd out came the frustration, helplessness nd tantrums.. v gals wud take turns in crying nd consoling each other.. nd more still.. in lashing out at each other 4 no reason..
as the xams got over one by one i cud feel the difference.. v were starting 2 relax.. now with juz 2 more xams 2 go(postponed ones.. typical of our state) i knw vre all almost bak 2 normal.. all the resolutions 2 b systematic from the next sem.. pah! im sure the day the last xamz over.. vll b bak 2 our laid-bak selves.. only 2 return 2 the peak of tension 4 the s2 university xams..
but hey.. lifez too short.. nd vre tryin 2 live by the rules of "living life 2 the fullest".. xams come nd go.. u clear all the papers if u put in a little effort.. but the memories of campus life.. stay 4ever..
so my new yearz resolution(in advance): ENJOY EVEN MORE!!! :D